Does anyone check this??

I can't believe how long its been since I've posted anything.
What happened? Facebook, I guess!
Let's see what has happened in the last year and 4 months... OH I know.. I had a baby.
Some days I really can't believe that I did. My life is no longer what it use to be. I can't believe I am a mother and I love it.
That being said there are days that I miss my old life but my little darling boy is only 4 and half months so I am hoping I am still in the adjusting stage, if there even is such a stage!
When I found out I was pregnant I thought 'ok.. this isn't going to be so bad. My life will be the same as it is now only with a baby.' I wasn't really going out that much. My partying days pretty much ended when I left Halifax. Man, oh man, was I wrong.
There are so many things that I really had no clue about and things no one told me about when it came to being a mother.

For instance...
No one tells you ,at first, friends will call like usual but then it becomes less and less each month. But even if they call or email all I have to talk about is my baby and no one wants to hear about him all the time. Even though he is the cutest thing ever. Still, I long for phone calls where I get to hear about what baby less people are doing. The dates, the nights out, work... you know what I use to do!

No one told me that if I held him too much he wouldn't fall asleep on his own. He's four months and if I don't rock him or bounce him to sleep he just cries forever.... I can't take him crying it breaks my heart and I really don't know how to fix this!! All I ever heard was you can't hold a baby too much. Um, ya, you can, and I wish I knew this before!!

I don't want this to sound like I am not enjoying being a mom. I do. It's the best thing in the world. I love it for all the little reasons, like when he wakes up in the morning and sees me and smiles its better then any night out .